Its been a strange year here on Mindsay .... and I can look back and honestly see that not much has changed.

I first blogged under the name justjewels when I first came here .... last July.  I had just lost my waitress position at a local restaurant that I had worked at for 2 1/2 years.  I came here looking for depressed folks .... people who could relate to my darkness.  And I found plenty.  Then due to a misunderstanding with another Mindsayer I deleted my blog and made the decision not to return.

But I had become addicted to this place and returned as iliketiedye.  I have since stayed away from most depression blogs only because they seem to hinder my own recovery and have met some really great wonderful "friends" that have kept me laughing and given support above and beyond anything I could have hoped. 

A year later I'm back fighting depression .... but feeling much better today.  I've come to the conclusion that things will be what they will be and the only thing I can do is hold my head up and face what consequences come. 

Apparently I was put on this earth to learn many lessons.  Or maybe it was just one .... and I haven't gotten it yet ..... ?

Bottom line .... my biggest fault is caring, caring to much ..... and that alone allowed what happened to happen. I'm not sure I want to go back to the house.  Even if it is offered. 

So .... Happy Blogging Anniversary to me.  Thanks to all those that have put up with me for so long.  I hope you will continue to do so.

Peace.  J.