Yesterday was a day of slap in the face reality.  This reality being ..... if I ever, ever, ever get to the point where I am unable to care for myself ..... put me out of my misery and don't don't don't ever put me in a elder care facility.  The pictures left in my mind from yesterday's visit to one of my mothers friends who had a stroke will be a long time leaving.

Holy crap ..... it smelled like human piss, stale piss everywhere.  It was dirty.  People in wheelchairs parked up against walls in the hallways, heads hanging, some mumbling to themselves, some drooling on themselves.  Beds un-made and three to four crammed in one small room.  A woman in a room somewhere screaming for "LINDA"!!  Because she just knew someone had stole her socks.  "THEY STOLED MY SOCKS ....... LINDA!!!!"  For a half hour this woman yelled ..... my mom couldn't take it anymore ..... we left after a short visit. 

My mom cried the whole way home seeing her friend in this place.  I told her I would never do that to her.  Never.   People, it would be more humane to be Dr. Kevorkian (sp) than put people into these places.  I'm not a caregiver type person ..... but I can give more care and love than anyone in that god foresaken facility.

How can we do this to our elderly?  Don't people realize that it is these people who made the world what it is today for us to enjoy?  These people endured much more hardships than most of us today could imagine.  My generation and those after mine have been pretty damn lucky.  How is it we let this shit go on? 

As we were leaving I noticed a woman walking out the door in front of me.  Dressed to the "nines" and wearing her best "come fuck me" pumps.  As she crawled into her Mercedes ..... I wondered ..... does she own this place?  If she does .... she needs a good lesson in humanity.  She needs to be bitch slapped.  Angry doesn't begin to describe what I feel.

It's time that we demand that our government regulate these facilites to the maximum extent.  Otherwise I promise you will never ever want to put someone you love in one.  I've seen the good .... and now I've seen the worst of the worst.  And I don't want to see it again.

Peace.  J.