Been a bit busy the last couple of days .... and when I have a break to sit down here all I feel like doing is reading a few posts and replying.

My mind has been overactively worrying about this damn interview on Wednesday.  I've let it consume me as I said I wouldn't let it do.  Drove out to the place yesterday to make sure I knew where I was going when the time came.  It's tucked away back behind the town of Greenview over the hills and back in it's own private little valley. Approx. a 6 mile drive from my front door ... one way.  A small back road through pasture lands and mountians and very little traffic takes you to this beautiful new home.  All cedar it looks across a wide single lane road into a beautiful pasture with the Scott River flowing on the other side.  All I could think was what a beautiful place to have to come to work.  It made me smile to think about summer drives to work in the little MG Midget convertible .... the smells of summer pastures and pine trees ..... sunshine, warm warm sunshine.  I don't even know what the heck the job is I'm applying for .... but I want the job.  The setting is so peaceful.  I hope the girls that stay in this home realize what beauty they are surrounded by and take advantage of any and all opportunites given them there. And I hope to play some sort of a role ..... even if it's scrubbing toilets .... to be in that peaceful surrounding would be worth it.

I have a lot that needs to be done and I'm preoccupied with worrying.  What to wear ..... casual? .... dressy? .... will I pull off an interview ok? ..... will I seem as anxious as I feel? ..... will my mind function when I get there or am I going to freeze? I'm scared ..... no, terrified ...... totally terrified .....

Anyway .... this is probably why I haven't wanted to post ..... Been trying to stay upbeat and happy ..... but the last few days have been rough.  Supposed to see M. this afternoon .... but not sure if I really feel up to any social anything ..... a distraction would be good, I'm sure ..... shit, maybe I'll go ..... don't know ..... I'd rather just sleep.

I have to find hay today .... our normal hay supplier has cut himself short and now I'll be trying to find the rancher who hasn't done that ..... I always laugh when the hay ranchers here have to buy hay elsewhere. But they can lead me somewhere I hope ...... buying by the bail at the feed store gets mighty expensive. Sounds fun huh?  The hay hunt begins ......

Have a good Sunday all ..... the shower calls ..... getting something accomplished is on the agenda ..... scattered as usual but trying to hold it all together ..... I'm gonna try and check in on everyone sometime today .... I hope. Miss all of you .... don't forget your old pal Julie, K?     LOL

Peace.  J.