Dieting just sucks. My weight is something that I have been doing battle with for years - since I was 19. And trust me....I'm much older now. I have dieted countless numbers of times. Always with success - but eventually the love of food and drink take over and the next thing I know I'm wondering why I am so uncomfortable in a pair of shorts I was wearing quite comfortably a few weeks ago.

It makes me start to feel miserable about myself. And it doesn't help that people keep telling me I look fine. OK...I look fine....do I feel fine? Fuck no. And you can't tell me that this extra 10-15 lbs. I am packing right now doesn't show.

I'm setting the date 9/1/06. Diet starts again....no sugars (severe weakness for anything sweet), no fats (rarely eat alot of fat) and no booze (and I do love my beer). Water, water and more water. Exercise, exercise, and more exercise.

Not looking forward to this.....but this is a battle I must keep fighting in order maintain any kind of self-worth. I wish I didn't feel that way....weight should not play such an issue in anyone's self-worth. But it does. And it's sad. Just sucks.....15 lbs. that's all I ask...piece of cake right? No pun intended.