I believe in please and thank you.  Two words I use alot everyday in my vocabulary.  I also believe that everyone deserves to be respected unless they do something to be disrespected.  I needed to get that off my chest ....

For the last 3+ weeks I have been taking care of my mom after knee surgery.  And don't get me wrong .... I love my mom .... but as I had said in a previous post she has been short on the please and thank you's lately.  I am about to explode.  I'm really getting tired of being told what I can do.  I'm fully aware of what I can do.  She is 84 and I need to cut her some slack and I have been.  But is there a time when I can say "hey, mom, I may be your daughter but it doesn't mean I don't like to hear a "please" once in awhile?" 

And on a somewhat different note ....

I don't want to stir up anything ..... and maybe other churches are more the way I tend to remember them to be .... but my mother has gone to the same church now for about 25 years.  She is a deaconess.  She has always been very involved in church.  Taught Sunday School for about 45 or more years.  As she has aged she has slowed down some of her activites/duties (thankfully) with the church.  But still extrememley involved in "prayer chains", baking cookies or dinners for those in need and visiting those who live alone.  But since her surgery I have seen the pastor of the church once.  Her one best widowed lady friend has come by ..... twice.  And that's it.  No one else from the church.  A couple phone calls ..... but not like I would have expected.  I don't think that she really thinks anything about it .... so why does it bother me so much.  I watch this women wear herself out for others .... but where are they when she may or may not need them?  Yes, Dave and I are here ... so I guess it's ok to just not stop in and say hi.  I find it odd.  Enough of that .....

I have erased this blog and started over a thousand times today .... trying to think of something thoughtful or funny to post about ..... but I keeping going back to the above bitch .... so forgive me ....

It's miserable cold here today.  Rainy.  At least it didn't snow last night.  Always a good thing.  After living in the Sierra's at 7100ft. for twelve years .... I find snow irritating.  Very . Yeah, yeah it's pretty and all that happy crap but ..... it's still snow and it's still irritating.  I long to live where I can be in shorts and flip flops 24/7 ..... 365 days a year.  People say it would get boring .... no, don't think so.  I live for sunshine and warmth.  I live to be outdoors. But in fair weather only ... I hate being cold.

I have to go to the vet today and drop a minimum of 100.00 on pills for dog and syringes for cat.  Something to look forward to.  A trip to the grocery store and bank are also in order for the day.  Just get such anxiety about having to leave and go anywhere ... I'm completely out of my comfort zone right now anywhere but home.  I just about puke thinking I might have to see anyone who may know me.  And seeing how I know more people than I care to it will happen.  I don't want to talk to anyone here.  I have nothing to say to these people anymore.  Nothing.  Honestly, if there was a way for us to move and not leave mom here with this property to deal with .... we would.  But mom won't leave here and she can't handle it on her own.  So feel stuck.  Very stuck.  Sucks.

Ok ... enough bitching and complaining for the day .... hope yours is a good one ....

Peace.. J.