I'm not sure how the heck I'm feeling today.  An emptiness in my stomach .... like I've been kicked hard.

It's everything I can do to not flip out.  I'm hanging from a thread. 

I want to scream.

I want to get revenge.

I want to hurt those that have hurt me.

I want to punch walls.

I want to go away.  Far the hell away.  From everything and everyone.

I'm thinking I'll just quit my bar job .... before I get fired from that one too.  I couldn't deal with it.  I can't take one more bout of rejection.  I don't have it in me anymore.

No fight left.

Peace.  J.